True Love? Left Wife for High School Sweetheart

Dear Roger,

Dear Name Withheld,

What a shame. I am sorry that things have not worked out with your current wife. I am also grieving for you that you and the love of your life were not able to work things out long ago. Your life obviously would have turned out quite differently.

It is easy now to play the "What If" game. What if we had gotten married right out of high school? What if the army (and other things) had not kept us apart? What if I had met another "sweet heart" I loved with all my heart and married her and not gotten "trapped" into a marriage I really didn't want?

The corollary to the "What If" game is to look at it like this: "What could have happened, did happen!"

Very seldom do we have the chance for a "do over." That is what I hear you asking for. Unfortunately, I think that in your case, "what could have happened, did happen" (and it can't be undone." You have to play the cards you've been dealt. Or, perhaps it is more apropos to say, "You must play the cards you dealt yourself."

I don't want to sound harsh. You are not alone. I get asked questions like yours quite frequently. In some cases it is time to pick up the pieces and start over. In others, it is not.

Unfortunately, I don't see starting over as a legitimate nor honorable option for you.

Since your wife is sick with liver cancer (although there seems to be some doubt about this) I don't see how you can leave her in a time of need.

I see no grounds for you to break your marriage vows (Matthew 5:32).

I imagine that you're saying to yourself, "Your answer is not at all what I wanted to hear!" My response is, "I really am sorry."

I am assuming that you are a Christian; and, therefore, if you choose to follow my advice (Biblically based on Ephesians 5:20-33), you're perhaps asking, "What am I to do?"

The biblical answer is quite straight forward. You must learn to love your current wife and break off the relationship with your high school sweetheart. Trying to love two women is most difficult and one will certainly come out on the "short end of the stick." I think we both know which woman that would be.

Whenever I have a husband or wife in your situation I remind (challenge) them with the three levels of Christian love enunciated by Paul in Ephesians 5 and by Jesus in Matthew 5 and 22.

Love your wife (Ephesians (5:25-33)

Love your neighbor (Matthew 22:39)

Love your enemy (Matthew 5:43-47)

I say to the husband (or wife), "Paul said to love your wife as Jesus loved the His church and sacrificed His life for her. Can you love your wife as Jesus loved His church?"

"No, not really," he replies. I'm not certain that I ever loved her. But, I know one thing, I sure don’t love her now!"

Then I say, "Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself. If you can't love her as your wife, can you love her as your neighbor?"

He pauses and reflects before admitting, "No, I can't say I even love her as my neighbor."

"Well, then, Jesus said we are to love our enemies. Can you love her as your enemy?"

We just can't get away from our responsibility to love.

Love is never described in the Bible as a feeling. Love is always an action verb. Jesus said, "If you love me, keep my commandments." Loving Jesus is not a feeling. Loving Jesus is doing what He says. Love is always portrayed in the Bible as doing something for someone else.

Love is an action verb. In 1 Corinthians 13 Paul lists sixteen characteristics of love: "Love is patient; love is kind, love is humble, love is well behaved (etc.)." These sound like simple adjectives. But, they aren't. Paul, as he writes in Greek, presents each characteristic as a verbal adjective. Each of these is something love does--whether the feeling is present or not.

Name Withheld, I imagine that if you were now speaking to Jesus person to person about your question, He might well say, "Go and love your wife. Care for her, protect her, stand beside her and help her to become someone special--whether you feel like it or not."

Name Withheld, thank you for sharing your story. I hope all turns out well. I think that many others will benefit by the answer to your question.

May God bless you with great days ahead.

Love, Roger